Friday, February 26, 2010


First of all I want to thank you for the gobs and gobs of comments y'all left on my last post. I was a bit emotional and on the verge of an emotional breakdown when I last wrote. Your kind comments and facebook messages sure lifted my soul to know you were lifting me up in prayer. As for Jack he is well. He is adjusting well to his new medication and he has been seizure free for
12 days now. I'm praying for a longer record, but for now I better just take one day at a time & rejoice for those. And for the grace to handle it if we see another seizure. I feel a little better each day and releasing him back to God....because really I can't change one thing whether I worry or not. It's a process people. I feel like I'm on a 12 step plan. So thanks for praying. Thanks for your encouraging words~knowing you care means a lot.

So anyways....Our computer is in the kitchen, if you didn't know. And when not in use (very little of the time) there is a slide show/screensaver that goes through the last 6 years of our lives. (Before that it was film & developing baby) GAG.

So does this little girl look familiar to you? It reminds me so much of Suzanna...but really it is Isabella & she is holding William.

And here Isabella is again, she is 4. the time flies. And at this time in our life we were buying 3 different sizes of diapers. So kinda glad that part has flown past us. Isabella needed a diaper just at night...but just the same needed her own package. Jack was almost 2, and William was born in April~the time this picture was taken. The sweet little chocolate baby is Caedmon (William must be taking a nap~somewhere) I remember on this day my cousin Sherri came to babysit while I took William to a check-up, brought dinner and gifts. :) What a sweet memory.
Another awww moment....Here she is again...I have to look twice is this my Suzy?? :) Nope~ It's Isabella. Hard to believe she will be 10 this summer!
On this day we were meeting my friend Bobbie and her kids at Mc'D's. Isabella is holding Clayton. I had seen him born and then Poof! He was 5 months old! That's what living 2 hours apart will do to ya. Good times at Mc'D's trying to talk while the kiddos played.

And here's Suzy for reference. Wow! Do Isabella and Suzy look alike or is it just me?

I was reading this blog and was reminded of all the "last's" we have when raising our children. It was a good reminder of how fast time slips past. Little did I know when I snapped this picture above almost 3 weeks ago....It would be her last time she needed me to stand right beside her. Wow! how did you grow up so fast little 3 1/2 year old? A sweet friend took me to lunch yesterday and after lunch I let Suzy ride a different Carousel...And you know what??
She wanted to ride "all by herself!" What? Really?? Wow! You little honey. I kept staring at her wondering how she got so big!

P.S. if you are wondering why she has the same sweater in different colors that would be because TCP had them for $1.97. :)

quote of the day:
while watching Viktor Pfeifer on the Olympics...
William: "wow, I didn't know boys could wear girl clothes."

Monday, February 15, 2010


My fear monster is back. The nagging little tug that pulls these strings and teeters between almost forgetting what happened last night and then remembering and having this fear pierce through my heart. Making me want to find that little 7 year old of mine and not let him out of my sight. Last night another seizure came. It lasted about 5 minutes. It was awful & scary. We held him, and felt helpless and we watched Jack's lips turn blue, his face grey, and him be totally unaware that we were there. Watching as he seemed to be choking on his tongue, wishing there was something~anything we could do to stop it. After it was done, he passed out. We carried him to our bed...and watched. Wanting to sleep...wishing I could get the ugly fear to stop replaying the seizure in my head. Telling myself....He will be o.k., far more children~have it far worse, this seizure could've been longer~more severe. Praying for him. But then giving way to tears...again. Glad for once to listen to Jack snore~knowing he's sleeping peacefully. And listening to his daddy snore beside him, knowing he got it from him. It has been 6 months since he has had a seizure. I wrote about it here.

Our Neurologist has told us when his seizures are over 10 minutes that we should call 911~ under that time frame to keep him home and follow up with him the next day. Which is what we did today. He changed Jack's medication and increased the dosage. We follow up with the Dr. for bloodwork in 2 weeks and again in 6 weeks. The triggers are many~we suspect that it was because he was over-tired and exahusted. It was around 11 p.m. when he got to bed.

I need your prayers if you can support me that way. I'm trying to balance healthy concern and fear. Letting go and letting him return to normal everyday activities. Letting him be in the basement to play with his sister, letting him go off to school in the morning, and this little guy has a birthday party this Friday to go to for his best friend. Wanting him to go and not all at the same time. Wanting to let go and let God be God~Wanting to let Him strengthen me, and refine me. But letting my fear get the best of me at times.

Thursday, February 11, 2010

sweet little cookies

SO I was looking at one of my favorite web-sites for some Valentine ideas here. And I saw this picture.....

I needed to take a sweet treat for William's valentine party tomorrow. So I improvised just a little and used a recipe that was NOT from scratch...and very easy. Cake mix, oil, and eggs. Roll in balls and put on pan. Insert cookie stick into. After cookies were cool, I melted white chocolate chips with just a little oil in the microwave. Then put that into a freezer baggie, snipping off the corner to make a disposable cake decorating bag. Zig Zagged some stripes, sprinkled some hearts, and wah lah!!!

Do not think I will be putting sweet little pink ribbons on them all for the kindergartners...but did just for you, my little bloggy friends.

I love when I get an idea...and instead of being something that turns into a 3 hour event in the kitchen~Turns out sweet and short~and kinda cute.

quote of the day:
Suzy: "Daddy, I told the children all about my day."
Donovan: "What children?"
Suzy: "All my brothers and sisters silly."
Donovan: Oh, how you are going to the resale shop with Camden & Ava?"
Suzy: "Daddy, NO! Ava goes to the babysitter. It's just me and Camden. Silly Daddy"

Monday, February 1, 2010

Three Cheese Calzones

Want a simple and yummy supper for tonight? Go and get these won't be sorry you made the special trip to the store if you don't have these things on hand. :)

Three-Cheese Calzones

1 pound refrigerated pizza dough
  • 1 cup fresh ricotta
  • 1 cup grated mozzarella (4 ounces)
  • 1/4 cup grated Parmesan (1 ounce)
  • 1 bunch spinach, thick stems removed and roughly chopped (5 cups)
  • black pepper
  • 1/4 pound thinly sliced salami
  • 2 tablespoons olive oil
  • 1 cup jarred marinara sauce, warmed


  1. Heat oven to 400° F. On a lightly floured surface, divide the dough into 4 equal portions and roll and stretch them into 8-inch rounds.
  2. In a large bowl, combine the ricotta, mozzarella, Parmesan, spinach, and 1/4 teaspoon pepper.
  3. Layer the salami on one side of each round of dough and top with the cheese mixture. Fold the dough over the filling and pinch the edges to seal.
  4. Brush the tops of the calzones with the oil. Transfer to a parchment-lined baking sheet and bake until golden, 12 to 15 minutes. Serve with the sauce.
I used Prego~my fav spaghetti sauce. I also have done it with the pre-made pizza dough and without. It's excellent either way. And my kids loved them. I actually keep spinach in the freezer that has been cooked and put through the food processor. Just so I can add a little green once in a while. So I just used that. (In case your kids are skiddish about spinach)
Let me know what you think!!!